Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Hoedown Goals... goals in general

Today is the first day of the Shrinking Jeans Holiday Hoedown, my first challenge since finding this network of ladies (and a few gentlemen). Part of the challenge is weight-loss and fitness related, logging minutes and pounds lost every week, but also setting goals for ourselves that are not fitness related.... And I'm drawing a blank. I don't think its really because I don't have any goals, I do, but they are so vague and broad that it would be tough to pare them down into a 5 week challenge. Just wouldn't make sense. Last semester I took a Sports Psychology class and goal setting was one of our projects, and I feel like going back and focusing on making GOOD goals, specific goals, is exactly what I need right now.

So lets start broad:
  • I want to finish my (first) 70.3 triathlon in July (Vineman 70.3 Ironman)
  • Prior to the Vineman, I want to complete no less than 3 sprint triathlons and 2 olympic triathlons.
  • I want to be ready to start my half-ironman training plan the first week of Jan.
  • Before really getting into the more intense portion of my training I'd like to be down to 130lbs, this is mostly because my training hours begin to go well over 11 hours a week I don't want to also be trying to cut calories, it will lead to over training issues (which means by Feb 1st).
  • I want to be consistent in my training between now and January.
Now for the next 5 weeks during the challenge - so all to be accomplished by Dec 22.
  • I will lose 4lbs.
  • I will accomplish 2 long runs of 7-8 miles each.
  • I will strength train a minimum of 2x a week
  • I will increase my swimming distance to 2800yds a workout
  • I will swim a minimum of 2x a week.
  • I will run 3-4x a week.
  • I will cycle a minimum of 4x during the challenge, at a minimum of 1 hour each time.
  • I will stretch everyday.
My next project now, will be to come up with a weekly schedule to fit all this in for the next 5 weeks. I love having something printed up so I can look at it in the morning and know exactly what I need to accomplish. :) Love me some Excel! Or maybe this time I will make a check list broken down by each week... we'll see. I'll get it together in the next day or two.

I guess that wasn't so hard, now I just need to follow through with it. ;)

And as another goal I'd like to set for myself, I will blog about the next 5 weeks, at least once a week, to keep myself honest. I have never consistently blogged in my life, but I think it would be interesting to see what I end up having to say. :)
Holiday Hoedown Challenge

Tuesday, October 5, 2010


"Love is such a four letter word sometimes"

This was a status update from a friend on Facebook today. When I read it I automatically felt sympathy for him, I know things aren't always easy in love, and it made me sad that he might be having a hard time. Then I thought about it some more... and a little more.... and then decided that I totally disagree. Love is only a four letter word when you let it become a four letter word. When you stop being thankful for love, and start seeing its faults, or blame it for the choices you make, then it might become a four letter word, but those are all choices... and no fault of love itself. Love is a gift. Always. When you take advantage of its presence in your life that's when you will begin to lose love. It is meant to be appreciated, nurtured, and enjoyed. When it begins to take a new role in your life, a role that allows you to believe it to be a four letter word, something has gone very wrong.

I've been to this place, where you almost hate love. I've been miserable and stayed in situations that no rational mind would allow for what I believed was love. Now here is my belief, looking back on my past... love will not make you miserable (I'm talking seriously miserable, it may make you sad, or mad, or upset). It will not make you irrational. At least not in the bad ways. It will not make you consider changing your core beliefs for its sake. Love will drive you to grow, it will drive you to share what is in your heart with those around you, and it will help bring you up when you don't quite have the energy to do it yourself.

Oh, and one other thing... Love is not white fire hot, burn up anything within reach of it. THAT is lust, that is infatuation. It is not love. Love can maybe come from it... grow out of the ashes... but in order for that to work you have to have more than the red hot embers to move it forward, otherwise it will simply fade out. Mutual respect and honesty, commitment, similar visions of the future, TRUST... these are the things that can allow love to grow from lust. It can't be forced, because then you will perceive love as a four letter word.

I'm no longer forcing things. There is no need. I trust and respect, I am committed, and I am honest. It is not white hot, ignite everything else around it. It is sustainable. It is real. I haven't yet had to work at it, it has all come naturally. One day it won't be as easy, but I am fully ready to nurture it and give it the respect it deserves. Its not like a dazzling whirlwind where I can't find which was is up... its like I've come home, even if I never knew where that was. I am at peace, I am happy, and I couldn't ask for anything more. :)

Monday, August 23, 2010


I am visiting Troy in Taft this week... and feeling uneasy. Or restless. Or uneasy and restless. Or something. I'm not sure if its because all summer I have been kind of running all over the place, seeing people and working and going places and now I have a few days to just relax and it is just going to take me awhile to get used to the feeling or if it is just being here. In "their" house, which is what I think of it as. There is a big part of me that is kind of feeling like this was a mistake, to stay here when he is working. It just makes me notice even more... of them. Its not that I really want to pretend that he wasn't married, and that their split isn't still fairly new... I don't want to deny those facts, I guess I'm just feeling insecure in his desire or immediate ability to move on to another relationship. I really like Troy. I love Troy even. Its the new, exciting, still learning about each other kind of love, which is different from what I could feel for him a year from now... but I am on my way. And quite honestly I don't want to get my heart broken. Not that anyone ever does, but normally I am the person not wanting to hold back, not worried about my heart. I am a jump in with both feet kind of person when it comes to love. Normally. I not sure how to interpret this fear... other than maybe just my sanity... my normally realistic brain finally being heard when it comes to the well being of my heart.

I'm not really sure how I feel about my fears, but for now I'm just letting them float, and see what comes of them.

And for new topics...

My getting-back-into-it week last week:

Wednesday: 3.4 mile run, weights after. I was sore but it felt to good, and little knee pain.
Thursday: Took the dog for a walk, good to move the legs and the dog always loves a nice hour walk.
Friday: 3.2 mile run... WITH NO PAIN!!!!!!!!!!! No seriously, I didn't even want to think about it until after I got off the treadmill... didn't want to jinx it.
I took Saturday and Sunday off being here in Taft, so my body is feeling well rested.

This week's plan:

Monday: Took the dog for another walk on their small bike trail here in town, which was actually really nice.
Tuesday: Run the route I took the dog on a walk on Monday, I think its about 3 miles, and then do some strength training here at the house. Originally I had intended on going to Bakersfield and hitting the gym, but I need to be at the house for sign for Troy's truck toolbox that is being delivered so that changes my plans.
Wednesday: Take the dog for a walk again. I don't want to over do it with the running
Thursday: Run again, not sure if it will be at the gym or outside, but I want to get in another 3-ish miles and then strength training again.
Friday: Depends on where I am when I wake up, probably just a walk in Clovis, even though I won't have the dog, I'll want to stretch my legs out before the all girls extravaganza at Bass lake this weekend.

I'm just hoping that my head doesn't cause me to act like a complete psycho and really make a mess of things.

Monday, August 9, 2010

Work in progress

I'm not yet sure what I want to chronicle in this blog, is it my journey to becoming a triathlete? Yes, probably. My final push toward graduation (finally!!!) in Dec 2011 so I can move on with my life. Of course. But its also about being active, finding balance, finding center. Its also about being motivated and inspired by everyday people being active. One of my favorite things to do is go out for a bike ride on the bike trail because I get to see so many people being active... getting out there either on their own or with people who's company they enjoy, and moving. I love to see it!

So really, not only am I a work in progress... but so is this blog, and we will see where it takes itself. :)