I have been in survival mode.
This includes not working out because I
But I believe there is a light at the end of the tunnel. And it is getting brighter.
Next Tuesday is the last step that needs to be taken before life can even begin to take a "normal" shape. It will be a sad day, but a peaceful one as well, my family has been preparing the best we can for this day for several years, and I think while we are all sad to say goodbye, we are relieved that she (my grandmother) is finally at peace.
Because I am beginning to see the possibility of normalcy return to my routine, I am trying to make small steps to take better care of myself between now and then. Right now I am eating an apple (which is delicious, btw) instead of tracking down the delicious carrot cake muffins that the coffee shops here on campus carry. Its a small step but at least in the right direction. A yoga studio close to me offers 10 days for $10, so tomorrow I am going to my first yoga class. I am excited. I need to find some center, and some balance, and I am hoping yoga will set me in the right direction. The best and biggest step is opting to stay home this weekend. It will be the first weekend since August that I will be home with no plans. Seriously.
And Friday I will run.
Just writing that makes me smile. I miss running.
Beyond this weekend I've already started up an excel sheet planning out workouts and plugging it all in, along with where I will be and when. I know there is a saying... "Even the best laid plans...."
But plans that go awry are better than never having a plan at all.
I will leave you with what will be my 2012 motto (really my motto for the rest of my life)
2012 I'm coming for ya with BIG plans!