Wednesday, November 9, 2011


Life has been a bit tough recently. The whos, whats, whys, and hows are somewhat unimportant, and many unanswerable, but the aftermath has left my heart heavy and life feeling a bit burdensome. 

I have been in survival mode.

This includes not working out because I want need the extra hour of sleep, and my diet has take a hit from all the running here and there, and eating out I've been doing because I haven't made it to the grocery store like I wish I could have.

But I believe there is a light at the end of the tunnel.  And it is getting brighter.

Next Tuesday is the last step that needs to be taken before life can even begin to take a "normal" shape.  It will be a sad day, but a peaceful one as well, my family has been preparing the best we can for this day for several years, and I think while we are all sad to say goodbye, we are relieved that she (my grandmother) is finally at peace.

Because I am beginning to see the possibility of normalcy return to my routine, I am trying to make small steps to take better care of myself between now and then.  Right now I am eating an apple (which is delicious, btw) instead of tracking down the delicious carrot cake muffins that the coffee shops here on campus carry.  Its a small step but at least in the right direction.  A yoga studio close to me offers 10 days for $10, so tomorrow I am going to my first yoga class.  I am excited.  I need to find some center, and some balance, and I am hoping yoga will set me in the right direction.  The best and biggest step is opting to stay home this weekend.  It will be the first weekend since August  that I will be home with no plans.  Seriously.

And Friday I will run.

Just writing that makes me smile.  I miss running.

Beyond this weekend I've already started up an excel sheet planning out workouts and plugging it all in, along with where I will be and when.  I know there is a saying... "Even the best laid plans...."

But plans that go awry are better than never having a plan at all.

I will leave you with what will be my 2012 motto (really my motto for the rest of my life)

2012 I'm coming for ya with BIG plans!


Brooke said...

love it! that epic shit won't know what hit it!!!

quicklikeabunny said...

Wishing you the best run ever on Friday with no worries about pace or distance - just moving.

Bari said...

That is a GREAT motto! ((hugs)) to you & your family sweetie.